Brenda’s Teardrop is her ego. The ego is the mind-made entity that consists of a bundle of thoughts that occur frequently. In the bundle of thoughts are all the things that we’ve identified with ourselves – job positions, relationships, accomplishments, disappointments, our successes and failures, what other people think of us, all those thoughts form in the mind. They come together and congregate in a bundle. These congregated bundles of recurring thoughts become the place where we derive our sense of self. It is a story-based entity – The Me and my story. And the story is called “My Life”. My life becomes a mental construct. The way we interpret memories.
Tagged: mental projection
I first got to know the number 666 and what it meant in the West in about 2014 when I went to the FaceBook page of some kind of Wellness or Health show in Vancouver. It just happened that I found myself to be the 666th liker of that page. I felt extremely lucky, so I posted a request on their page, asking for free admission for that show, just because I was the 666th person to like that page.
It was through my brother, as always, that I heard the news of my mother’s hospitalization. On WeChat, he said it happened after midnight. An ambulance took her to the hospital.
As usual, I read it, and marked it as “Okay I hear you”. I didn’t want to ask all those detailed questions that would burden my already stressed out brother. I let him talk, when and what and how. And I said, “Okay I hear you.”
I had a Skype session with a client during my travels in Venice Italy. It took me some extra time to get everything ready as connecting to the Internet didn’t go smoothly. I was six minutes late for the online appointment.
But finally I was on. I was glad. And my client seemed to be relieved too. So I said sorry, I didn’t mean to be late. I was about to tell her about the hard time that I had sorting out the wi-fi connection in Italian.
Growing up, I often wondered, what happened to my music?
It was as if I was meant to be musical. When I was a child, I dreamt of singing on a stage.
Those daydreams were very real. I had them in detail.
Over six years ago, on a Car Free Day in Vancouver, I met someone who I could only use the words “my counterpart” to describe. Strange it may sound, it felt to me that he was me in another form. He is a musician – a singer song writer. Like a soul splitting into two, living simultaneous parallel lives, I felt he is fulfilling my music side of life, and I get to single-mindedly focus on what I came here to do. Hypnotherapy is musical after all, to my life.
And in this music, I feel so heard.
My hypnotherapy practice tagline is “Access Your Inner Wisdom”. It’s based on the fact that we all have the inner solutions and wisdom to tap into.
A person can come into my practice presenting an issue, according to their conscious mind, like changing a habit, tackling an emotion, resolving a pattern… that is perceived from the conscious mind, which thinks, analyzes, rationalizes, and has short-term memories.
They come to see a hypnotherapist because they believe to find the cause of the problem, or solution, they need to go inside to their subconscious mind – the mind that created the problem and holds the solution.
Chelsea is an illustrator. She recently had a very “terrible breakup” that “triggered her major depression and anxiety attacks”. She cried everyday for two months. She couldn’t continue working so she took a whole month off to heal, so that she could function.
The entire class turned their head to me. My face went red.
I thought, “Here comes again.” I have became an alien in people’s eyes.
“So, what specifically was hard for you to choose what were given to you?” The instructor was trying to make sense.
My face became redder. I have chosen to stay true to myself, but I hated to cause a scene in the class!
My voice came out in a lowered volume, “The questions themselves are not hard. I suppose I could pick any one answer and justify that. ” I took a breath. “For example…
Is there a difference between darkness and evil?
Without doing their own thinking, many people would not even hesitate a second and say, “It’s the same.”
Treating darkness and evil the same is the source of a lot of our problems, mental, emotional, spiritual, even physical.
Mentally, when we treat them the same, we immediately get into the dualistic energy, and we become judgemental. We all say it’s not good to judge – but “it’s not good to judge” itself is a judgement, yet we cannot help but judge, to a degree that I hear a lot from my hypnotherapy clients, “Well, everyone judges. We can’t help it, even though it’s not good.”
That statement doesn’t have to be true. We only judge when we lose the balance of light and dark.
So, is there a difference between darkness and evil?
I say, “Yes.”
Recently, someone living in London UK sent me an email asking some very challenging questions on accessing his subconscious mind using Pendulum. We went back and forth with a lot of long emails that I will not get into the details in this post. However, one particular correspondence between us may be helpful for those who practice pendulum or dowsing.
So here I am, driving the car I was inspired to buy, sitting in a garden of a Spanish-Villa-style house in Oregon, so close to Mt. Shasta, taking a course to end the trance of suffering taught by an enlightened being who I call my teacher, at the perfect address 832 A Street, having paid the course with the newly found cash, feeling how crazy fun all this has been.