A Piece of Kemila's Mind

A Past Life that Has Many Turns

After helping people visiting their Past Lives on the daily base for some years, I have to say that I am rarely surprised, even when occasionally I get someone in a past life as a well-known person, or as a king. However, Caroline’s story intrigued me, in a sense that it constantly surprised me in the session, like a well-plotted novel.

Caroline feels inadequate in her relationship, even though she has a wonderful boyfriend. She has hang-up about his ex. And she has this constant feeling of “my point of view is not important”, “I’m left out.” “I’m not part of something.” “It’s not worth it.” “I am nothing.”

Helped by those organic words, we were easily bridged linguistically into a past life of Goli. The open scene is Goli, a 3-year-old boy, inside a small house. It’s dark, with only some dim candlelight. He is standing inside a baby bed, watching his two older brothers playing. He feels alone, as they are not playing with him.

This seems to explain a bit of those not-part-of-something feelings. Brothers play, paying no attention to the little one who doesn’t know how to talk.

Further probing brought out the story. Their parents were burnt by the town people – They were “witches”. They knew magic. The year was around 1739, and the country is Austria. Three boys were left alone, with a woman coming everyday to cook for them and take care of their basic needs. Goli doesn’t have memory of his parents.

Goli is not able to speak until almost seven. He cries a lot, as he is often left alone. Goli tries hard to follow the two brothers everywhere they go. The three brothers are not allowed to go to the town, so the two brothers are all the people in the world for him.

Goli grows up this way to 13. The two older brothers decide to leave, going far away where nobody knows them so they may have a chance for life. They know it’s risky to seek for freedom, as they can be caught and persecuted. They decide to leave the young brother behind. Goli doesn’t want to be left alone. He begs to go with them, yet the choice is not his. “I’m the small one, so I just obey”.

From 13 to mid twenties, Goli lives in complete solitude, not seeing anybody. The woman stops coming, as she’s upset about the two brothers’ leaving. There is deep sadness in Goli, missing the brothers, and not knowing whether they are still alive or not.

Goli never sees his two brothers again in that life.

A typical day for Goli is working in the field, and talking to animals. He puts some of the things he grows at a certain place, and some villagers come secretly, taking them and leaving with him some necessities. He doesn’t see them.

Everyday is the same. There is no joy in life.

I thought that was it. The rest of the life would not be different. We were going to have a short life.

Until we move forward in time “to the next significant event”.

Goli is 28 now. He sees people, finally, a lot of them.

It’s somewhere underground, a secret place. A big group of people takes him there, completely covered. At first Goli can only guess. He feels they need him, yet he doesn’t know why. They group insists that Goli can “see”, and he has this healing power. The anxious people want Goli to perform; yet Goli has difficulty understanding them. The lonely man is very confused.

I thought that was it. The people may turn angry and kill him, until Goli told me it’s not.

They eventually make Goli believe that he can see the truth and consequences of some events. After that they do it quite frequently, taking Goli underground. After he believes, Goli starts to do his work well. The group treats Goli well, but most importantly, Goli enjoys the interactions and connection with people! When Goli is not taken to underground, he starts to be busy preparing herbs for the next gathering.

I ask Goli to use his amazing “seeing” ability, to see if his brothers are still alive. He feels that they are – far, far away.

Just when things get better, Goli is put to prison at the age of 35, for breaking a law by performing underground healing. The prison is very “hard” and very, very cold, yet Goli doesn’t regret. “I didn’t go with my brothers. I stayed, yet I took my own risk. It was worth it. I learned skills, and I changed my life.”

I thought that was it, the end of the life in the prison.

Until Goli guides me to three years later. The government is involved in a war. They give each prisoner a metal sword, and send them to fight.

I was not sure if Goli survived that. I was prepared this was the end of Goli’s life.

Goli then tells that he manages to escape. He arrives at a village where nobody knows him, helps a family in a farm, and starts to get a new life.

The most exciting thing is freedom. “I don’t have to hide anymore!”

At the age of 44, Goli has a wife and a 2-year old daughter. There is much more love in his life. He still occasionally uses herbs.

Over two hours have passed in the session. This life has taken a lot of turns. Many times I thought that was the end, yet Goli went on.

At the age of 52, Goli gets a fever, sweating, chills, no colour on his face… He dies surrounded by family and friends. The last conscious thought before he takes the last breath is “I’m glad I made it out”.

We did contextualization, and reinterpreted the meaning of the events from that life, with its impact on this one, and we re-examined the thoughts about brothers. Caroline understood how her experiences were the result of her own thoughts and emotions, and how these affect others.

Caroline relearned that Goli was isolated because people believed he was powerful, not because he was nothing. Yet powerful or nothing are both just perceptions.

This is one of the most amazing lives in my work. I thought he was going to die many time yet he made it. Yes, I’m glad you made it out, Goli, and Caroline.

What do you think?